What can I say.. A beautiful journey with mother or a ugly life without mother!!.well, I lost my mother when I was 15. A girl who was totally dependent on her mother for everything, now became alone.. But let me say how my life s after her death,, I m 22 year old now.. There are many things I learnt in her absence.. To be frank I knew nothing when she was there., because she used to help me in everything.. I learned to live without sharing anything to anyone.. I learned to cook.. I learned to adjust to people, I learned how to not to depend on others.. I learned to control my emotions..and what not.. Yes,, life s very difficult without mother.. But she will always be there around me.. I became emotionally strong(I feel).. If i had to speak about reality, I am now taking my mother’s responsibility.. Taking care of my house,cooking.. All I learnt by myself, and still learning.. Yes it’s very difficult because no one helped me..Relatives stopped talking to us, thinking that if they talk to us, they should help us.. Anyway that’s good for me. That made me to learn by myself.. Now I m proud of that.. One thing I felt is,, when no one helps u God will always be there to help us.. But the pain will always be there.. It’s so depressing for a girl who s studying should take all the house responsibility.. In this way, I lost myself.. I fell into depression.. I couldn’t focus on my studies, I worried about my future.. I wasted many years in this.. I have insecurities.. I have no one to talk.. No one to share.. But I can write here.. Anyways.. Life always throws challenges to u.. Be ready to face all the challenges.. Definitely we r going to learn something from it.. I have no idea how my future would be.. But I feel my mother will always be there to protect me.. I never made my mother proud when she was alive.. But I will definitely make her proud one day.. I have a chance to make my life beautiful anyhow.. Learn to live alone.. Everything s temporary.. Enjoy the life as it is. 😊.. But I miss u maa..
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Fear of judgements
Hello friends… I wish to share my experience with fear of judgement..
It all started in my school.. I did my primary schooling in cities and did my high school in a village.. So people around here were so judgmental about everything.. About my looks, about my expression, about my dress.. Whatever I do people used to judge me and hate me for no reason.. I used to be very honest and straight forward…But people started judging about everything I do.. With this I moved to college, and my fear of judgement started from then.. I used to speak less thinking that they may judge me for what I speak.. Even people did that.. They used to call me senseless,mad.. Everyone used to avoid me.. This led me to depression.. And I scored very poor marks in college.. Ultimately I wasted next two years in depression.. I didn’t even go to college thereafter having fear of judgement.. I m doing my college from open university.. No one knows this.. I lied everything that I am doing a good course in good college.. But I m not.. I lied in the fear of judgement… I don’t know how to overcome this.. But this fear of judgement ruining my life..
Beauty of life 